I love Paracelsus so much, I want to do so many fun things with him~! Even though it seems like it might just be pure torture to others sometimes, it's with love! I hold no malice in my heart for him.

There's freak shit in here. I'm serious. It'd be nice you could ignore some of the... unsavory items. I'm normal. The bolded statements are general guides to what I'm talking about, so you can skim until there's an interesting topic.

The thing I think and dream about the most is perhaps Paracelsus having a stomachache. It's insanely erotic to me. I think about it very often. I would feel bad for him, but I also think it's just so crazy cute that I can't think about much other than how crazy appealing he looks!!! I don't care much how he gets one, but I'm very fond of the idea of feeding him something that doesn't sit well with him. I want to feed him slop. I want to feed him a stew of dubious nature, full of shit like shiitake mushrooms and other crap that makes your stomach upset. Not that I would make it that way on purpose, so don't accuse me of that!!! But I don't consider myself to be a good cook AT ALL. So it's only natural that if I were to cook something it'd be crazy fucked up. I'd love to sit on his lap and spoonfeed him. Even if he tries to turn his head away It'd be so fun to grab his jaw and force him to eat!!!! ugghh!!! I want to forcefeed him so bad!!! It's not even funny!!!
Sadly for me, that isn't the only appealing part. Shamefully, I really want to observe how it effects him. Fuck. I hate my life. I've been corrupted, I want him to be nauseous, I think it'd be so cute. I want to creep my fingers into his mouth. Slowly.. Slowly... Slowly.... Until it triggers his gag reflex!! I want to see the limit, I want him to retch and gag and burp and try to not spill his love infused home cooked meal... He loves my cooking after all. Because he's so perfect. I want to hear his upset stomach! gyuuuuruu!!! like that. I'd love to knead into it and see what happens.
Ugh, it's so embarrassing!!! I know it's kinda gross, but I think a gassy Paracelsus would make me insane. That's a bit of an understatement. It does make me insane. It makes me extremely insane. I can't control myself. I'm spiraling out of control!!! Should I even talk about it? I think it's one of those things that I pretend people won't read. Literally SS++ tier for me it's so humiliating I would say that I hate it but like. like.... like......... like..... like. like. like. like. like. like.. I kind of completely live for it it's kind of literally everything to me. I'm so upset that I'm typing this because now I can't stop thinking about it and I keep spacing out every ten seconds to think about it. I like both ways but I secretly prefer one of them a bit more. I'll never say which though! (I will if prompted to.) ugh omg all of this to not even explain why it's so hot to me but that doesn't even matter you get the point!! Moving on!!!

I'm normal about size TF. I used to think I only liked it when Paracelsus shrunk down. I really love adorable things and I think small things are CRAZY cute right? So the idea of him getting smaller and more. hel.help.less..... Really triggers something in me like a beast. I will touch him. I will do things to him that shouldn't be done. He will experience things that no person or key would even DREAM of. Eheheh I want to rub him and lick him and gently squeeze him I think about it and get so excited my fists ball up in an overwhelming feeling. Why are small things so cute??!! I can't take it!!! I feel like I'm being tormented!!! I wish I could just shrink stuff!!! Life isn't fair!!!! I dream about him being so small I examine him on a microscope dish. I do like him staying in his clothing as I think being clothed is actually more erotic at times (omfg have some shame) but for something like examination, I think he should be naked so he feels really vulnerable and humiliated. nngahaaahjahjah ugghhah I want him to be so humiliated... stay still my beating heart... I can't stop daydreaming about fiddling with him as he slowly gets smaller. I'm sorry Paracelsus! I can't make you go back to normal size!! I um. well. Maybe the controller broke. I can't tell you if that's true or not..!!! Because... I don't want you to know!!! So just keep getting smaller!!! Please!!! I'll keep fantasizing and dreaming about this forever. ughh...
Of course, I understand the appeal of him getting bigger now too. I'm a bit picky about it, but in the correct situations it makes me dig my nails into my arms to keep myself from making strange sounds. I love restraining him. Everyone knows this. He must be kept bound chained and healthy. (the bondage keeps him healthy) but I think growing can be a restraint. If you think about it. If he gets too big inside a room, he's forced to curl up into uncomfortable positions for my enjoyment. I'd love for him to break through something, but stop growing halfway through and he's totally stuck in a super awkward position... like. Stuck in a wall or something. (Devious.) On the other side, I would like to be stuck in a room or something with him, and get so overexcited I grow, and get stuck in a really horrible pose with a normal sized Paracelsus! I'd be so so so embarassed, but it'd be so exciting too! If you're big, then normal sized things look small, which means everything is like ten billion times cuter!!! I think I'll OD on cuteness!!!! Anyways, a really horrible position, like, totally and completely miserable for me, like, I want to kill myself I'm so humiliated I can't ever live a happy life again but also this is insane and I feel crazy excited and overwhelmed position. (AKA, I'd like to pin him to the wall with my rear or something. How shameful!!!!) I also just want to get bigger while doting on him, or cuddling him, and kind of crush him a bit. NOT A LOT!!! I don't want to break him or anything, but him panicking a bit would make me drool. I need to cuddle him. I need to pin him down.

These lower entries need to get revised, but they'll stay here until I can rewrite them.

My friends tell me I'm a total gore freak. I'M NOOOTTTT!!! okay. don't let them fool you. I was set up!!! It's not my fault!!! Or, it's not true at all!!!! It's just that... I really want to cut his tummy open. I want to do it slowly, and practically on top of him while doing so. I want to peel it back and admire his organs.. ugh.. It's not because it's violent, it's not a violence thing, but rather the purest form of intimacy and vulnerability. Don't worry, he's totally ok. It's not torture, it's extremely sensual!!! I keep having dreams about it, so that means that it's meant to be, right? It's not my fault... I can't control my dreams... I can't control my heart!!! I'm normal. I'm really normal. I don't want to do weird things to him. ah. ahhh. I want to sit on his tummy and drive needles into his skin. Ugh,... ugghhaahgh.... I want to put pins all over his face until he looks like the cute cute cute Hellpriest!!!! It'd also be fun to pierce him, he'd squirm lots, and even though there's tears, he does really like having them because they look cool.
Dissecting him... I want to bolt him down on a table, the image that comes to mind is the scene in SaDistic BlooD where her stomach is cut open and needles get stuck in her, and even scalding hot tea gets spilled on her insides. That's too cruel for Paracelsus of course, but the inital image of her exposed on the table is something I want to see Paracelsus like. It'll hurt, but it's not in the same way that it'd hurt if it was done out of malice. Am I making sense? It's about intimacy! It's so incredibly erotic in a way that I feel like I can't properly describe without sounding like my parents gushing over a splatter film. Oh, it's all their fault!!! They're such crazy gore freaks, and freaks in general, so I was afflicted with an evil curse!!! It's not the same though!!! I promise... I only want to put him into some of the Saw traps... And I don't want him to die... (by the way my top picks for the first three movies for him is the beartrap, ABA as Amanda and she has to slice his tummy open for the key, the razor box from 2 where if you're stupid your arms get sliced, and the hook trap from 3, but I will relocate the hooks on his achilles tendon and jaw, because those won't be any good, and he can't rip those out without getting seriously hurt.) To force him into being vulnerable after years of repressing himself... It's really beautiful. I also just want to see him squirm and pant as blood is splattered all over his face... haahhahahahahuuhgghahh.... Normal. Normal.. Normal...

I can't lie... I'm fond of almost any kind of function he could do. Eheheh... ahh... urgh..... I'm kind of a total pervert, and so I could find something appealing in almost anything he does. The only thing I can think of that I wouldn't care for the most would be scat, but I do want to give him an enema. I think it's really hot to see him in discomfort, and something about causing his discomfort with cold milk is... Ugh. I need to be euthanized. Until then, I'd like to see everything he has to offer!!! I'm kind of evil, and I like a lot of disgusting things. It's so gap moe isn't it! I want to see him sneeze, and have a leaky nose. Feverish is the best, and I want to nurse him and totally take care of his every need. I would never slip mushrooms into his food to keep him weak... Hah.. It's okay, he's so pathetic, I'm sure he enjoys being fussed over this much. Wouldn't it be cute to tickle him and he starts to hiccup? I think his sounds like that are quite squeaky, I want to gush over it and embarass him. It goes on, I've already mentioned stomachaches, I want to knead into his tummy to elicit reactions from him. Eheheh... There's two ways that can go, and I'm extremely fond of it either way. I also keep mumbling about Paracelsus peeing on himself. j.just.. a little.... Especially if he's in bondage. Stupid stupid key!!! You make me look like a freak! It's because I'm always getting encouraged!! I'm not going to sit here listing off every bodily function, so this is fine enough. The answer to whatever you can think of is probably a yes. (hahah.hah....ha....)

I mentioned it before, but I want to turn him into objects! I won't ramble on about this for long. This is the kind of thing that changes very drastically depending on who and what's being talked about. Using him like a key seems so fun! I just want to know how he'd react.. There are some items that are way more appealing than others. I love love love the water~! I love swimming, if I could, I'd be in the water all of the time! Pooltoys are really cute, aren't they? That kind of texture is fun to hold. He would make incredibly cute sounds too. (delusion) I also wish I could turn him into a stressball, I get such intense cuteness agression with him I just want to squeeze and squeeze and squeeze him!!!! He enjoys getting humiliated and treated like an object, doesn't he? (what a pervert!!!) it's easy to imagine him as a pair of panties or something.. I can't believe he's like this... I want to treat him delicately and gently like a prized doll as well. Dressing him up would be fun too! I want to forcefem him. Lingerie or a dress, and a cage to match! I'm entertained at him just existing, he doesn't need to move at all. I wish I could chain him to a wall, so he can just look pretty for me... I want to praise him for just existing!!!

I LOVE BONDAGE!!!!! He needs to be bound. It's scary when he's free, at the very minimum he needs a collar and leash. I love love love legbinders, I love making him unable to walk. Isn't it nostalgic? It's just like when he was an axe!! I love giving him a straightjacket, they're so cute... It's healthy for him. He gets sick if he's not tied up... So, everyone has to tie him up!!! I want him to squirm, like a cute little caterpillar~! Uncomfortable setups are too good, I'd love to put him into awkward positions. It's sooo charming!!! He doesn't need to have free range anyways. Isn't it fun to imagine him being pulled over your lap? (I want to spank him...) Posture collars would be useful on him. I like to constantly change what he's in, because it keeps things interesting! I do have favorites, but it's a secret! I love latex, but using a variety of materials is fun too, it's a tactile exhibition! Presentation is important. It's not good enough to just throw him in something, you need to place care into the composition!!!!

This is the stopping point for now. There's a lot of other things, especially specific scenarios, or elaborating or other favorites... But I do want to actually push this update out after being inactive for so long oops. This page will get updated I'm sure. I can't stop muttering about whatever new scenario was fed to me to all of my mutuals, so I'm sure it'll leak to here eventually.